Death!!!

dont u ever think bout death or willing to kill urself.....otherwise suicide??

hurm......

from this moment.....i learn to have a feeling of losing someone that i love and i care so much....

u know what......

in the afternoon.....(yesterday)

i received a sms sound.....

"salam..ni abg sopi.....

sopi dah meninggal dunia semalam...

dia kene barah otak...

jenazah arwah dah dikebumikan zuhur tadi..."

hurm....u know how it feel???

it feel like i'm stabbed my own heart without i realize....

its not talking bout dont believe that happen...

but it all sudden....

i thought it was a game..

but when i call him...

his brother picked up the phone and say...

"xkan cek nak men2 sal kematian....ang gila ka??"

oh god!!! i'm not dreaming again!!!

i feel very sad.....

i dont what to do anymore...

very complicated to say...

i'm totally speechless...

this is my 2nd tyme losing the one that i love....

i know what i'm talking bout...

its bout life...

we cannot predict whats gonna happen in the future...

but we can plan....

we can plan not to die for tommorow..

but we dont know what gonna be for tommorow...

urgh!!!!

i keep thinking bout him...

i dont know y...

its feel like i had nothing here...

in this cruel world!!!!!

sometimes...i think bout wanna die....

its really pain....

this thing we called as hurt ourself by hurting other....

such a pain deep inside...

no one would notice....

do i plan to die????

but when i'm gonna die???

tommorow???

now???

no one knows bout that except Allah S.W.T...

i believe in Him....

He gonna place my big brother with the people that His side....

amin.....

i always luv u my brother!!!!!